Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Is The Sky Falling?

I laughed at Chrissy when she described her delight over this picture with her babies. She said that when one starts to "blow" they all do (somehow I remember that more clearly than I would like too!). Little James decided to erupt..and what tickled Chrissy was the others looking so intently at him, trying to decide if they too ,should be concerned and begin erupting themselves?! All the while, Chrissy was looking deeply into his eyes assuring him that everything was fine and there was no need for such uncertainty!

I wonder how many time my Father has done the same for me?! In the midst of uncertainty how many times must He have spoken softly and lovingly to me, while looking deeply into my soul, assuring me that everything is fine and their is no need for fear? In all honesty, I would hate to know how many times!

I so easily find myself looking around to my immediate surroundings and circumstances and to those in closest proximity of my heart and try to rationalize how everything is going to turn out. Much too often fear triumphs. The crazy thing is it seems to go unnoticed at first. All I can see is the "urgency of the situation of the moment" and the "in my face" reality stands 10 foot tall, or so it appears. I'm one of those on the couch with all of my energy focused on James and letting him determine how I will respond, rather than looking into the eyes of my Father as He tries to remind me that I'm one of His and I can trust that everything really IS matter how "undone" James is at the moment.

He reminds me once again that this present reality is not reality at all! I carry in my bible one of my favorite definitions. It is the definition for the word TRUTH found in John 1:17.

John 1:17 For the law was given through Moses, grace and TRUTH came through Jesus Christ.

The Greek word for truth is Aletheia, which means the "unveiled reality pertaining to an appearance. The reality clearly lying before our eyes as opposite to a mere appearance, without reality!"

Wow! That "thing" that is going on in your life is only a "mere appearance without reality" and what God is doing behind "the appearance" is the true reality! We're all busy looking at James and he is really upset and he is really upsetting us...what if he's right and the sky is falling...then what? If you can still your heart and drag your eyes away from what is stealing your focus and quietly poise will hear the Father's soft voice and see His loving eyes fixated on yours, assuring you that everything that has stolen your focus is a "mere appearance without reality"!

You would also hear Him say that His grace is sufficient. If you will notice in the verse in John that "grace" precedes the word "truth". For truth without grace is only half truth! Jesus never intended for us to face truth without His grace to do so. You see the problem with James is that he is only seeing the problem and not the grace that is available for him at the moment. That is when fear takes over.

So I don't know about you...but I'm choosing not to look at James but rather fixate on the grace given me to embrace the truth of the moment...the real truth! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and ALL things work together for my good!

He will ALWAYS have the last say and He has already said that you are "the apple of His eye" and that He longs to be gracious to you and He rises to show you compassion. He has plans to prosper you and give you a hope. And He also said that He will perfect that which concerns I guess James will just have to cry alone this time...because I'm trusting my Father!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Life is Bitter-Sweet

One of life's sweetest cries...Millie Opal Jones arrived Sat. morning (Aug.1st) at 10:03 a.m. I don't think I've ever heard a sweeter cry! She is simply "more" than words can say...more than hearts can hold...more than joy untold! She is absolutely "Millie". Her name means strength and determination. She has stolen our hearts...I'm sure we will never get them back! Actually...she can just have mine! Smile!

Within only hours of her arrival Chrissy's plane arrived from China and Clay and Brooke came in from Tulsa. We "all" shared the past 14 days together in beautiful Seattle. How blessed I am to have such a family. I am saddened for those whose family loyalty is all but non existent. We have been through some really hard times...but we've always done it as a "family". And oh, how wonderful it is to share the "good times" together as well. Life is truly "bitter-sweet".

I think it is the bitter in life that makes the sweet so sweet. Yesterday was one of those bitter moments. I had to say goodbye to 3 of my "babies". We put Chrissy back on the plane to China and kissed Jenna, Ben and Millie goodbye as we boarded our long flight back home to Tulsa.

How much will Millie change before I can hold her again? Time and space are so limiting. How I hate that! I am so grateful that they don't limit the lover of my soul. Ours is the only relationship that I have that is not affected by where I sit on a topographical map. I never have to say goodbye or board a plane leaving him and my heart in a far-a-way land. Everything outside of Him, that I love, are have loved is limited in some facet. But He and His love for me are always perfect and complete...lacking nothing...interrupted by nothing...preceded by nothing! He satisfies the "deepest longings" of my soul.

Life is full of "bitter"...actually I am working to navigate through it in several areas of my life at this moment. When I look into Millie's precious little face I'm reminded that life's sweet is "truly" sweet. I'm reminded that we were all created to be loved...we crave it...we long for it...we search for it...and all the while it is pursuing us. He, the most radical lover ever known, is pursuing us! Nothing short of Him will ever perfectly satisfy...NOTHING! As I drudge through the muck and mire of life and grow weary, I can always count on Him. As I take my eyes off of myself and look up...I see him gazing down on me...with that same loving look that I find myself looking at Millie with...and again I am reminded that life's sweet is "truly" sweet! And I find the courage to face the bitter with more strength and determination and with more hope. I take the opportunity to step up on the bitter as I make it on my way up to the "more sweet".

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Blessed To Be A Blessing

Life is full of "new beginnings". It's 2:30 a.m. and I am sitting in a darkened delivery room awaiting the arrival of my first grandbaby...Millie Opal.

I have pondered the idea of starting a blog for some time now. There are days when I wonder if I have anything of value to say...and there are other times that I sense that if I don't speak up, most assuredly there will be a rock that will cry out in my place. And needless to say, I will not be outdone by any old soft and breakable piece of sandstone! My life is built on the love and grace of THE chief cornerstone, the rock of all ages. My hope for this blog is that it may encourage you on a day when you need to be reminded that it is not

"the rock that you stand upon, but the surrounding sea which ebbs and flows".

This I know to be true. He has never faltered. The tidal waves of life have warred for my stance...but He has never allowed me to be overtaken. The only thing that has ever truly "overtaken me" is His love and passion which brings me more joy than any blog can ever describe! But my desire is to try!

I sit here anxiously awaiting my sweet little "Millie" to cry out...

the same way my Father must await mine.