Friday, October 16, 2015

I was too needy, to continue to ignore the fact that my head believed a truth that my heart had refused to embrace. It was easy to answer life's hard questions with memorized scripture...but much harder to answer all of the questions of  my heart. The Words written on the pages of the Bible ARE. NOT. THE. SAME. as those same Words written on the pages of  my heart. I wrestled...knowing that 'truth" was intended to set me free...but I couldn't seem to navigate it from my mind into the depths of my heart. I began a quest for Love to teach me how to believe His wonderful truths in the depths of my heart and not just my head. As you might guess, it is a work in progress. But, I have to say that my heart believes more Truth than it ever has. I see a trend here...and it's wonderfully beautiful!

He began showing me that I had spent my life "wrestling FOR Truth rather than FROM it!" Now that may not sound like a big deal...but in fact it is a deal breaker! If I spend all of my energy trying to believe that I am the righteousness of God, I will never arrive there. My own weaknesses and the whispers of the enemy will keep my heart far from believing that I could be righteous. The enemy makes certain that my life experiences keep me from walking in the fullness that Love has provided for me. It is He, who says that we as believers, are the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. (2Cor. 5:21)  It's easy to believe it in our heads...just not in our hearts. It is in this failure, in the short circuit between our minds and our hearts, that we live short of all that Love has for us.

He has taught me that if He has said it, it is a done deal! There is no room for debate. No excuse for me not to walk in it. The problem or deficiency is only on my side, not His. He is my King. Once a King makes a decree it is settled. He settled who we are as believers 2,000 years ago on the cross. He decreed "It is finished". All of the labor and striving to overcome evil had been accomplished. He had done for me what I could not do. He had set me free and all I had to do was to believe! He said if we would "believe with our hearts and confess with our mouths, we would be saved." (Rom. 10:9-10) If there is an area in which we have not been saved, or made free,  it is because there is a deficiency of what we are believing in our hearts and what we are saying with our mouth. I can have whole chapters of the bible memorized, but unless my heart has been mesmerized by the truth found within them...I will remain in the bondage that has me trapped.

As a daughter of the King I must rule from that position...not for it! I must declare what my King has already decreed about me and my life! You have not called me to a power struggle against my flesh or the enemy. You have simply called me to a truth encounter. One does not have to wrestle someone for what one already possesses. You have  promised me that when I operate FROM truth and not For will be released! No one can steal it from me. My King has already decreed it is mine for the taking! But until I receive it and declare that it is mine, it will elude me. We must believe with our hearts and confess it with our mouths. It is the way we came into His glorious Kingdom and it is the way that we continue to walk through its depths.

I don't need to fight to prove myself or anyone else. I prove it by fighting from it! It is the way of the Kingdom of our God. So simple that even a child can come.